I don't know why am I feeling so down right now... I tend to think a lot when I'm alone. I dont really know how to express my feeling through words but... it 's tiring, keeping everything inside.
Why? Why is she not talking to me anymore? Is it because she has found someone better than me? Is this what friends are supposed to be? I'm so effing tired that I don't even want to look for her anymore. I know this probably doesn't mean anything to her because she has a very good, nice, perf person beside her.

What can I say.. I'm just so disappointed in her.. and myself for being not good enough. I suck, I don't know how to appreciate people around me, and that's why they left. Well I deserve it, I don't even have the right to blame on anyone. This will be the last time... I promise I won't blame on anyone anymore next time because college life means I'm going to meet new people, which means I'm going to have new friends, which means I will not care so much for her anymore.

I have no right to blame you, yeah... So let's not be friends anymore, as I'm such a burden to you.. I'm sorry and thank you for everything.



First post of 2014? Hah.