If tomorrow starts without me

"If i die tomorrow"

If you should wake tomorrow

and find that I'm not here

remember how much I love you

and please don't shed your tears.

For my life on earth is over

My days have been fulfilled

I did what God intended

My rows have all been tilled.

Just think of me with smiles

Hold my memory in your heart

For if you don't forget me

We'll never be apart.

For all the loves I held so dear

I'll be there by your side

watching, standing over you

I'll always be your guide.

And if one day you feel a sense

a whisper in your ear

Don't be alarmed, it's only me

to let you know I'm near.

And if we never got to hug

or say the word goodbye

Please, don't have a broken heart

and sit around and cry. 

Remember that I loved the Lord

and made my peace within

I prayed for his forgiveness

He washed away my sins.

So if I die tomorrow

and the sun for you won't shine

Just look up towards the heavens

I'm with the Great Divine

 Author: Unknown

"If Tomorrow Starts Without Me"

If Tomorrow Starts Without Me…

If tomorrow starts without me, and I’m not here to see,

If the sun should rise you find your eyes all filled with tears for me;

I wish so much you wouldn’t cry the way you did today,

While thinking of the many things we didn’t get to say.

I know how much you love me, as much as I love you

And each time that you think of me, I know you’ll miss me too.

But when tomorrow starts without me please try to understand,

That an angel came and called my name and took me by the hand.

He said my place was ready, in heaven far above

And that I’d have to leave behind all those I dearly love. 

But as I turned and walked away a tear fell from my eye.

For all my life I’d always thought, I didn’t want to die.

I had so much to live for, so much left yet to do.

It seemed almost impossible that I was leaving you.

I thought of all the yesterdays the good ones and the bad.

I thought of all the love we shared, and all the fun we had.

If I could relive yesterday, just even for a while,

I’d say goodbye and kiss you and maybe see you smile.

But then I fully realized that this could never be,

For emptiness and memories would take the place of me.

When I thought of worldly things I might miss come tomorrow

I thought of you and when I did my heart was filled with sorrow.

When I walked through heavens gates I felt so much at home.

God looked down and smiled at me from his great golden throne

He said, “This is eternity and all I’ve promised you”

Today your life on earth has passed but here life starts anew.

I promise no tomorrow, but today will always last

And since each day is the same there’s no longing for the past.

You have been so faithful so trusting and so true.

Though there were times you did some things you knew you shouldn’t do.

You have been forgiven and now at last you’re free.

So won’t you come and take my hand and share my life with me?

So when tomorrow starts with out me don’t think we’re far apart,

For every time you think of me, I’m right here in your heart.

 Author: David Romano

These poems kind of wakes me up to the reality of life itself today. Life is never easy, but why are we still willing to live in this world? Because we all have people we love & want to protect and take care of. It's all about love. But will they love you back even if you give them everything, treat them wholeheartedly? No, that's my answer. I've been telling myself I'll eventually meet the person who cherishes me, loves me as much as my parents do, But it has been so many years, why hasn't the person showed up yet?
One day if I'm gone, I hope there's someone who'd remember me forever, shed some tears for me, buy me the flowers i like, clea my graveyard and talk to me even if I'm gone. But, that's only what I hope. If I'm gone, I want everyone to forget me, I'd never want anyone to live a life like mine, I don't want to be selfish anymore. Life is so pessimistic..

Life sucks, and then you die.

Overwhelming feeling of sadness. Why do I always have to feel so insecure? Why can't I be cool about everything? Why do I have to make myself feel shitty every single day? I tried.. I really tried my best to be a happy girl, i tried to not let my family worry, i tried.. i really tried.. I'll not give up, I'll continue to be a better person, until I'm really tired of faking.